Tuesday 2 July 2013

First Day

So, today is my first day blogging. I find this whole thing a little gay, but since keeping a diary is seen to be gayer I said I might as well start a blog. I hope no-one can read this, except me and maybe a stranger from Pakistan, as I will more than likely NEVER see them.  Right now I'm supposed to be doing the job of a woman - tidying the house. But instead I'm writing this load of shit on this website. I'm gonna write all about my experiences here on this and look back one day and realise how GAY i was, but sure hey, YOLO! 
     Just last Saturday i was told possibly one of the most devastating news a person can be told, today is a Tuesday, I think?, summer holidays. Hard to keep track of the days. My mother told me she has Breast Cancer. I was in shock, I didn't believe her. I kept telling her that she shouldn't be messing with me. Unfortunately she wasn't. It was something i was going to have to accept, which i still haven't as the days seem as normal as the rest. It's in a couple of weeks time that things will begin to get nasty and I'm scared, a reality is that, she could die. I'm feeling weak as I write this. It's gonna be hard and I'm scared. I'm only 16, I have no idea how to deal with this. I have planned to go into fifth year and skip T.Y, but now that this  news come knocking at my door my sister says i should probably do T.Y as fifth year is so important and i will be distracted by the health of my mother, I will also have to take on jobs as well as worry about her. My sister will be gone to college and only will she be home at weekends so during the week it's up to me to cook and clean and essentially do the jobs of a housewife, I don't know how my mother did it. My life is going to get complicated, and with T.Y basically being a doss year it will give me more time and freedom to look after my ma. Also for my Leaving i want to study History and Art and have two months to choose, I'd love to try art but my teacher said the highest i could aim for is a B2 whether in history it is possible to get an A1, but history is a LOT of work!! 
     So. Basically it's going to be a tough summer. I better get back to cleaning.